Monday, 30 July 2012

construction or destruction..........

had a weird dream last night...... shook me...........
weirdest and wildest...........
can feel the tremors even now....
was just thinking of it few mins ago.... how nightmares break the trail of peace in the souls....
and it takes much time on both mind and body to revive back to normality................




when life gives such nightmares to people....
 its devastating enough to give up on even trying to get back up .....
all of us have some or the other wildest of experience that we never want us to haunt back while it never loses the single chance of not doing so........


it takes a toll then, to be able to get the normality back.....
i always want to feel normal as quickly and impatiently as possible after a big disaster............
haunting always continue along with the struggle to be able to overcome the fears and tremors ..


mates, we all are in the same battle, just different devils.........
but what are these pains for, is it bcz we deserve it?
i seldom ask questions , where it went wrong.....
but if i could do all but look back into the kind of value system i and alike are following?
speedy, rash, quick, impatient......
we want our tea on the bed , 
roads with the lights always green probably bcz i m always rushing in order not to get late......
boss never to complain and scold....
no one to ever point out my mistake, cz virtually i am perfect?
cant wait fr the old man to cross the road and then to move my car....
 rather would bang his ears off with my horns........
to always pick up my phone while driving cz it almost always seems urgent........ 
and i cant wait till reaching home.... will use the driving time only.......


and then we all are educated.....
two words. wisdom and knowledge....which is the better one... or what should be chosen over the other?
or paraphrasing.... what have we chosen to live with........... ?
.
the stats say that the more we are getting educated the more foolish, consumerist and materialist we are becoming..........
we want a big car to prestige out in society...... we are knowledgeable but not wise.............
we are losing on our wisdom and value system big time.
don't you think we all need to change our attitudes so as to try restoring a few more moments of happiness in our lives...........
if we could try reaching out to just one person in a day... me......... i........ if we could juts look into how we are doing things.. a lot of miseries may vanish................... 




with this thought leaving u guys fr now...... it me crispy crunch,
signing off.... 
take care...........









Saturday, 28 July 2012

The Color White


could see all shades of colors
noticed that all are getting darker...
is it the sense of just an evening
or the approaching winter sarker (sarky)
all the shades are visible in void but the void seems pierced
cant see this now its too much, my canvas shows picture too fierce (d)
jus saw it closer my canvas, like an endless ocean its wide
I see it carries all the colors, but wait, where is my color white.
All the possibilities restrict to a dot
when you see sarcoma covering the sheet
how to protect my last sheet of the lot
how to bring out the peace beneath.

Still I can feel with my closed eye
All the noise, screams and that one hidden lie
like am lying there on the blue so wide
Its jus wet blue on the both side
Fitful, so fitful is my soul
The current is giving chills in my bowls
Enough white to all my blue
Knows who, over my mess will hit a clue
How to reach to that one white seller
Who adds to my blue and gets the baloney mess over.
He is my first crimson ray from the clouded sky
lights all the shades one by one and bids darkness a nice goodbye
No being can reckon the cost (of a self-made past) but
My heart still feels and believes as everything is still not lost.

Me

thoughts..............
ones i always wanna keep 
from steaming into words............. 
at times i cant control'em 
what my impatience is telling me, 
even i don't know.......
the wonders of my world....
my heart, my mind, my soul...
the one, who knows when,
the one who knows why,
the one who knows how...............
the only one.........